I want to enjoy
Enjoy singing, performing
Enjoy the search for a missing line
Enjoy your company
Enjoy that coffee
Any time
Enjoy the meal I’ve been waiting for
I want to enjoy
Every inch of sunlight
Every shade of dark and bright
I want to enjoy
Every natural thing
Like breathing
Or resting

And if it seems too much to ask for
Let me rephrase it :
I’m not talking of enjoying life
Or the human condition
In all its tragedy
To enjoy one’s meal
Is not an acceptance of life as it is
To enjoy a long breath
Is not a winning over death

I rage for what I’ve just lost,
Like sunset, good mood,
Perfect timing, appetite,
Mojo, social opportunities…
I rage about the stuff I can do something for
On a very daily basis
What is supposed to be simpler and easier
Unlike moving mountains
And God knows I enjoy moving mountains
In my humble scale
But I want to enjoy the power of standing at ease
Without any special purpose
Any urge to appease
Just for the sake of being, breathing, and feeling.

(Painting : Egon Schiele)